*Coming out of a depression cycle can sometimes be as bad as the actual depression. My whole body hurts. My hair is falling out. I need to get waxed. I need to get my hair done because there are 10 inches of roots showing. I need to shower and scrub and clean myself, BAD. I need to catch up with housework, family, emails, phone calls, missed appointments. I need to catch up on LIFE. It is indeed like coming out of a coma. and the anxiety of leaving the house again for the first time in weeks is crippling.
After my last depression episode- which lasted most of this summer- I did a lot of things I was proud of. I made it to therapy again. I actually drove myself! and, best of all, I got to indulge in some beauty maintenance. I went to the most high dollar, best rated, chicest salon I could find in the city for a whole new hair cut and color. The place I ended up choosing was Cinta Salon and I will for sure be back to see Bri for my color and Irina for my cut! I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror but this salon is the first place I went to EVER where I didn't look like shit when viewing myself as a wet dog post shampoo. I asked for a Bridget Bardot type haircut and got exactly what I wanted. and even my bangs were perfect! and I went to the city BY MYSELF. I also got a pedicure and manicure, got all my hair removed from the neck down by my favorite waxer, and got a spray tan. (If you want an amazing waxer or just need glam squad in general, look up @beautybymaile on Instagram. She makes my day so much brighter. even while getting my hair pulled out!) (check out Natural Bronzing for spray tans and eyelash extensions. They have 2 locations in the bay area)
I don't know how I can accomplish these things, in one week even, when I was literally immobile and handicapped for several weeks before that. My therapist always reminds me that I could do it all along but...when your down, way down, it just doesn't seem like a possibility.
I took a selfie over the weekend for the first time in months, and it was probably the first time I was okay with how I looked all year. The rest of the photos and videos of me from that weekend? That's a whole different story. Anyone who is friends with me on facebook can see all of the photo's and videos from our Ghost Hunt with Bridget (Yes, you read that right, a ghost hunt! and it was SO FUN!) However there was someone from the press there and puffy bloated me did not look good in any impromptu shots. Of which there were many. **Perhaps I'll add the link to the ghost hunt article, which features a picture of Bridget look as cute as can be!
*I went back and added to this entry on Monday 9/11 so I could put in the links for the amazing places I go to for my high quality "beauty maintenance". Also, someone had asked me if I was advertising for one of the company/products I mentioned in my Instagram. The answer is absolutely not. It would be amazing to actually make money from anything I do, but unfortunately because of my disability, I have no income whatsoever. Yes, that makes our lives difficult and adds to my depression at times. I am hoping someday, I can manage my symptoms enough to have even a part time job. but until then, I don't want to risk letting anyone down by not showing up for a paying job.
**here is the link to an article done by the Modesto Bee. I guess a picture of me slipped in there too! Check it out! http://www.modbee.com/news/article170125842.html
After my last depression episode- which lasted most of this summer- I did a lot of things I was proud of. I made it to therapy again. I actually drove myself! and, best of all, I got to indulge in some beauty maintenance. I went to the most high dollar, best rated, chicest salon I could find in the city for a whole new hair cut and color. The place I ended up choosing was Cinta Salon and I will for sure be back to see Bri for my color and Irina for my cut! I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror but this salon is the first place I went to EVER where I didn't look like shit when viewing myself as a wet dog post shampoo. I asked for a Bridget Bardot type haircut and got exactly what I wanted. and even my bangs were perfect! and I went to the city BY MYSELF. I also got a pedicure and manicure, got all my hair removed from the neck down by my favorite waxer, and got a spray tan. (If you want an amazing waxer or just need glam squad in general, look up @beautybymaile on Instagram. She makes my day so much brighter. even while getting my hair pulled out!) (check out Natural Bronzing for spray tans and eyelash extensions. They have 2 locations in the bay area)
I don't know how I can accomplish these things, in one week even, when I was literally immobile and handicapped for several weeks before that. My therapist always reminds me that I could do it all along but...when your down, way down, it just doesn't seem like a possibility.
I took a selfie over the weekend for the first time in months, and it was probably the first time I was okay with how I looked all year. The rest of the photos and videos of me from that weekend? That's a whole different story. Anyone who is friends with me on facebook can see all of the photo's and videos from our Ghost Hunt with Bridget (Yes, you read that right, a ghost hunt! and it was SO FUN!) However there was someone from the press there and puffy bloated me did not look good in any impromptu shots. Of which there were many. **Perhaps I'll add the link to the ghost hunt article, which features a picture of Bridget look as cute as can be!
*I went back and added to this entry on Monday 9/11 so I could put in the links for the amazing places I go to for my high quality "beauty maintenance". Also, someone had asked me if I was advertising for one of the company/products I mentioned in my Instagram. The answer is absolutely not. It would be amazing to actually make money from anything I do, but unfortunately because of my disability, I have no income whatsoever. Yes, that makes our lives difficult and adds to my depression at times. I am hoping someday, I can manage my symptoms enough to have even a part time job. but until then, I don't want to risk letting anyone down by not showing up for a paying job.
**here is the link to an article done by the Modesto Bee. I guess a picture of me slipped in there too! Check it out! http://www.modbee.com/news/article170125842.html
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| Here's the "selfie" I mentioned where I Iactually didn't think I looked too bad. and People, that hasn't happened in all of 2017 yet. |
Well written. And that's a beautiful glam photo!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I was finally in air conditioning when I took this photo. I can't believe it was over 100 degrees that entire weekend!
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