Bring your black dog to work day

I'm not going to say where I got my job, yet at least, but here is beautiful picture from inside!

I started a job! But I quit already!

...but then I kept the job after all...

What is even happening?!?

 Here is what happened:



After a summer of nice trips and vacations (some which you've already heard about here here and here) and going to see Gwen Stefani in concert in Las Vegas (which you haven't heard about but it happened! I saw Gwenny, Gwen, Gwen live!! and to see a couple clips from her show, check out my IGTV channel here)

Look at her awesome Las Vegas theme playing cards! I love how the show theme changes with each song

Anyway, after these summer trips, I found myself “ready”, as I ever could be, to start a “JOB”. I know it’s scary. It’s terrifying. To work outside of the house again is going to be an enormous change and if ever I needed a distraction from every-day life, the time is NOW.

Time for a Change

Things in my life have become stagnant. That is the only word I can think of that makes the most sense, "stagnant".  My recovery has become stagnant.  All the crazy amount of meds are not working, so over the last couple months I have cut my doses in half, but I haven't been able to find a new psychiatrist yet who I trust to prescribe me new ones. and I feel as though my routine is really out of whack from all the traveling I've done this summer.  It's so important to have a consistent day to day routine.  It really works wonders for me. 

Scheduling Conflicts 

At first I was scheduled for Monday, Wednesday, and Friday 8am-5pm.  I don’t really have a problem getting up early.  I would get up at 5:30am and have a good breakfast and espresso and I would have my outfit already picked out.  Every day I bring with me a cup for water and a cup for tea.  Why not use the paper cups and bottled water at work?  It’s better for the environment! And I am probably also the only person in the world who coordinates their outfits with their water bottles.  It makes my day cuter and ads a little fun and it seems to brighten people’s day to see what colorful accessories I am wearing.  But most importantly, brightens MY OWN day.  If you can’t picture what I am talked about, take a look at my favorite stationary/accessories store ban.do.  I also use matching colorful pens, notebooks and my planner is from ban.do as well.  It makes me happy.

Yea, I actually bring this to work and set it next to me. not so subtle hints.

My schedule sounded good, but once I began working, I realized being at the office 9 hours a day (8 hours of work with 1 hour lunch) was much more daunting and taxing on my energy than planned.  Here is where I almost quit my job because I had an additional health problem during my second week (issues with my mouth and tongue associated with bruxism/teeth grinding.  Basically I chew my own tongue at night and sometimes it forms a lesion on the side of my mouth and this time around it was so bad that the lesion got infected.  Gawd that’s disgusting and I’m sorry but if there is anyone out there who can relate let me know because I feel like I have the stupidest more rare things happen to me) and I could NOT face a 9 hour day in a brand new work place with a fever and pain in my and swelling in my mouth that when through my right jaw and all the way down my neck and up to my temple.  Luckily, I didn’t officially quit.  I just realized I need to change my schedule.  So now I do Monday through Thursday, 11am-5pm.  That gives me the opportunity to schedule all of my doctor appointments in the mornings and then I also don’t have to take a lunch which I think is much better for me.  I’m still having problems scheduling my therapy around my work but I am making it work

New Positions

My last job I had 3 years ago, was a very fun, but busy position managing a salon.  I was on salary, did all the hiring/firing, did payroll, bill paying, inventory orders and all guest related problems.  Basically the only job I DIDN’T do was clean the place at night.  And even then I had to sometimes watch the cleaners on the camera footage from home in the middle of the night because they were doing shady things.  However, at my new job, I am an assistant in every way. I am like a gopher.  In fact, this position was developed just for me.  So there really isn’t a set list of things I am solely responsible for and I kinda just need to fly by the seat of my pants and do what is asked to the best of my ability and when I find with myself with nothing to do and I am ALWAYS asking for new assignments or if there is anything I can help with.  I really like to stay busy at work, always have.  I am glad to see my work ethic has not changed.  I am still that go getter and goal setter and achiever that I was years ago but now I am at a more humble position and don’t get to be charge of so many things like I am used to.  At first, doing less work than what I am used to was giving me anxiety, but now I am feeling better and more acclimated to my job and what is expected of me, which is very little.  But I will still deliver that very little with very HIGH quality.

This blog entry is short but sweet and I just wanted to give this update about my life to my readers because I always want to tell you whats going on.   Because my blog is turning a year old (kinda sorta, it was approximately one year ago I decided to use this blog for writing about my life with mental illness and share it with anyone and everyone.)  I have had my google adsense (payment for advertisements) for about one year now as well.  Obviously, I don't make a whole lot of money from my blog otherwise I wouldn't be writing about this subject of getting a outside job in the first place.  but I do think that no matter how successful my blog gets, it's very important to have obligations outside of the house.  I'll keep everyone updated! Thanks for reading!

Love,

Lindsay