As you guys know, I start each year of with daily yoga through out the month of January. (love Yoga With Adriene's classes! and of course my girl Siena) the other day at the end of practice, we laid down on our matts and closed our eyes and slowly turned our heads left and right and it made me feel like I was looking at who was there next to me. Hmmm...who was laying there with? Who did I invite to lay down on the floor with me? and suddenly an image popped into my head of the last supper. I thought to myself since I was experiencing some grief that day (I still grieve deeply for Peanut), that grief was sitting to my left. and since anxiety has been very present in my daily life lately, anxiety was sitting to my right. I thought about the choices we make and how it decides who sits at your table with you. Sometimes you get to choose but sometimes there's a seating chart and it's decided for you.
Make sense? Let me further explain; living with mental illness is like having someone decide who sits at the table with you. Maybe depression is sitting there or anxiety. On particular days they are right next to me and on others they are further down the table and I know they are there but maybe joy and serenity are sitting directly next to me so I interact more with them instead. I thought about how I can choose who sits directly next to me and who I can interact with the most while also understanding that mental illness will always be at my table, sitting somewhere.
So today or this weekend, as you are going about your life, try to be conscience of who you are sharing your table with. If anger or regret are sitting there, be mindful in knowing that they are there but maybe force them to move down a few seats so you can get some space. Maybe you don't want anyone sitting next to you for a while? That's fine to! Whatever you choose, whoever you choose, make it a conscience choice. I love you so much, my mental health warriors! Thank you so much for stopping in to see me today! I wanted to update you that I haven't had a panic attack in over 24 hours and I feel like I am turning another corner! Be sure to share this blog and click on the advertisements! You guys rock!
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