Hey mental health warriors! Welcome back to Age of Pisces: a virtual self-improvement journey with a astrological twist. Today is the second day of Pisces season! How you doin? Hanging in there? The sun has been coming out a lot lately in Northern Michigan and despite the temperature in the negative digits it's been gorgeous.
I've made lots of progress lately on my dream controlling and getting out of my nightmares. In this vlog I address the horrific nightmares I've been dealing with due to trauma, PTSD and heavy metal detoxing. This might all sound kinda crazy and new-agey but hang in there with me. While studying psychology in college I learned the value of how to get out of your nightmares. I have reoccurring nightmares on a somewhat regular basis but the dreams I've had lately are so horrible, so absolutely terrifying that I wake up trying to get out of bed and run from whatever is trying to get me. It takes about 10 minutes for me to fully wake up and recognize that I am no longer in danger. It's truly an unsettling experience. I'll get to what my psychology professors taught me in a second but first I want to address healing frequencies.
No doubt you've heard of sound baths and meditations. The basic power of sound and vibrations are rooted in science and I can vibe with that. My psychic healer, Tara (here's her website), taught me this past Sunday about healing frequencies and how they can help me. Oh my gosh, you guys, I had no clue this existed! Que Monday morning, I'm having yet another horrible early morning night terror with a panic attack upon waking and Eddie suggested I find one of the free healing frequencies videos on youtube and fast. It works, ya'll! When I listen to this video in particular, I feel something within me unlock. and at the very least it's calming music like what you hear at a spa. Now I know why they play music like this. If you look at the comments on this video, you'll see people from all walks of life coming together to listen to this healing sound. There's people over coming addiction, healing from cancer, all sorts of situations and everyone is sounding off in the comments about how much this music is helping them. and it's free! You might even notice my comments highlighted at the top. It's so strange to be in a terrifying state of mind one minute and connecting with strangers on the internet over healing frequencies the next. Please give it a try and play it in the background next time you feel sad, scared, depressed, anxious or sick.
Of course you need to have an open mind for any of this type of stuff to work. You have to want to heal. I wasn't always in that position. For many years while I was bed ridden with depression I didn't want to heal and engage with the world because it hurt too much. Now that I am living my life again, interacting with the world around me again and rubbing up against other souls I am experiencing panic and anxiety but I'd rather live my life and deal with the mental illness then be turned completely off. I never want to go back to how I was in those days again. So when people ask me why I do the things that trigger me such as the job I do or pouring my entire heart and soul onto the internet for the whole world to see, it's because I already wasted enough time being locked in.
Back to controlling your dreams. Some call this lucid dreaming. I'm not into all of that. I want my subconscious to pick and choose what I need to dream about. It knows better then me. However, nightmares that are so bad that I wake up in an active panic attack and can't breath and have a racing heart is not cool and I'm not going to let it keep happening to me. To me, these dreams feel like a sleep paralysis episode mixed with a seizure. (remember to get checked out if you experience seizure like qualities in your sleep states. For me it was just the rapid eye movement I was feeling but some people do have seizures in their sleep) Not just your run of the mill bad dreams. So a professor in college taught me this really cool trick. At the time of this psychology class I was experiencing reoccurring dreams about being stuck back in high school. Ew. Gross. Right? No one wants to be back in high school. When I was in high school, I didn't have control over a lot of things happening to me, nor did I have a drivers license or car. So my proff told me that I need to tell myself, "If I am in a bad dream, my keys are in my pocket and I can leave anytime I want". It's that easy! Ok, there's another part to it. Write down and/or say this statement 10 times before you lay down for the night, whatever your hack may be. Perhaps it's just "when this happens in my dream, I'm going to eat ice cream instead" or "when I feel trapped in my dream, I'm going to fly away". For me it was all about the access to the vehicle and the freedom I finally had in college. So when I found myself back in school in my dream, no joke I had a car in the parking lot of my high school and I literally drove the fuck away.
This past weekend I started journaling again right before and right after I sleep every single day. It's not always what I feel like doing but each night has gotten progressively better. This morning my dream was a complete and utterly beautiful fairytale. I'm not kidding you guys, it was storybook fairytale dream and I was a princess running from bad guys and marrying a prince. I wrote some interesting poems about how I'll escape my bad dreams and maybe I'll share them with you guys if you are really good. ;)
Man! This was a lot today! I think I'll wait until tomorrow to get started on our daily Goddess lesson! Are you excited? See you back here tomorrow!
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