Hello! Happy Monday to you all. I guess you've probably noticed how I'm not writing on here daily like I wanted to for this daily Pisces season blog. I've had some family emergencies and yesterday I needed to drive down state to say goodbye to my Grandma Judy. Like hundreds of thousands of families this past year, I've had to wait until things were really going poorly for a loved one in order to see them in person due to the pandemic. I wasn't able to see my Grandma Judy while everyone was on lock down and I only got to visit her once last August in a brief meeting outside of her nursing home. Now that she is in hospice care, she is able to have 4 family members visit at time. Yesterday Eddie and I took the drive down state through rains, sleet and heavy winds to say good bye to a dear loved one. When you make these kinds of visits, yes you are there to say goodbye but I want to keep them memory of her that I have when she was still awake and herself last August. These types of visits are more therapeutic for the surviving members than anything else. I was there to sit for hours with my favorite Aunt Beth and catch up. It felt so good and really warmed my soul. Although I wish I could stay down there longer to be of some help, as you know we can't due to our business and being on call 24/7 for the medical examiner in 2 counties here Up North.
I was so glad you we could find coverage so that we could make the trip. It was only a 2 hour and 15 minute drive but due to the circumstances, it felt so much longer. I have a confession to make: I ate some really bad for me but oh so good Easter candy on Saturday. I tried telling myself over and over again how the last thing my body needs is this processed crap with fake coloring and flavoring and God knows what else. but the colors nostalgia get me every time! I have been doing so good over all with my diet and eating WAY less candy and processed foods than I did during the holiday month of December. Because my body has gotten used to me not eating this poisonous crap, I had a severe sugar hangover on Sunday. It didn't hit me until the ride back home from the hospice hospital. You guys, I had the worst migraine I've had in years. The bright colors making my eyes shake, the chills, the nausea, the dread. Oh it was so incredibly bad. I think that was my worst car trip since driving to an emergency room 30 minutes away while having a gallbladder attack before I got it removed. So much pain and every sound and bump in the road is excruciating. Since I haven't been leaving the house as much, my little pill case didn't have Aleve in it and we had to stop half way to pick some up at a gas station and by the time we got home, it was for the most part gone. but boy did I learn my lesson! The Peeps and Chics aren't worth it people! If I was able to eat all that shit before without getting a headache than that means my body was WAY too used to it. I was just thinking how in nature, sometimes things have really bright colors because they are poisonous and that's the way I need to think of the brightly colored candy that I am so attracted to.
Thanks for hanging in there with me you guys! Also, my last vlog I posted is blowing up so if you haven't watched it yet, check out it out! I'm going to make my heavy metal detox smoothie now and do my daily yoga therapy. If you are going through grief as I am, please check out these other blog posts that give lots of tips and advice along with research on this difficult time. See you back here tomorrow!
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