Hey mental health warriors! I haven't felt like much a warrior lately. Let's be real about something most of you probably also feel, I am extremely depressed and have been for about a month now. It's been very hard for me. I am not doing very well. There are many contributing factors to this. I haven't been able to blog, because in my opinion I need to be able to talk about my everyday life in order to feel a connection to you guys and I haven't been able to that. There are so many secrets that I have to keep right now. Some about my personal life, some about my business life. A lot of things have changed since December of 2020 and I feel like I am feeling what April of last year felt like for most of us but now I'm feeling it this year. I feel alone, unmotivated, no creative, unhealthy, tired, ugly and bloated (ok I just feel fat). I know it's sad to say those things but I want to normalize having these unhealthy thoughts so that we can also normalize turning these thoughts around.
I've kept up on one thing the last couple months that I've been MIA on here and that's yoga. Thank God that when I don't have my back, my yoga mat literally and figuratively does. I haven't been doing many things like I should including, meditating, praying, cardio, eating really healthy. I'm slipping away in to my world of depressed avoidance. I'm trying to pull myself out but it's very hard. I just want to let you know that if you feel this way as well, you are not alone. I'm just trying to feel alive wall also trying to suppress my emotions. When I'm really depressed like this I am a robot and have no emotion at all. To feel anything sometimes is relief. I obviously am still going to therapy but maybe I should up my appointments to every week again. I'm crying a lot of course and having panic attacks.
but, I know things will get better! They always do! I see the path ahead and it's still rocky and steep but there's a sharp bend that I can't see around and I bet when I reach it, and I'm out of breath and wiping my brow, there will be a magnificent view to behold. I pray that it will happen and I'm trying to manifest it. I'm here for you all. Please tell me how you've been?
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